BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD

 

Several years ago, I adopted this as my own personal mantra (or one of them):

BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD

I try each day to take a few minutes to meditate. Usually, it ends up being in bed while I’m falling asleep. I take a deep breath in, and let it out as slowly as I can, while repeating the above in my mind. I repeat seven times.

I take another deep breath, and while exhaling, repeat the phrase without the word God: Be still and know that I AM. Seven times.

For the next set of seven breaths, I remove the next word (actually, three words): Be still and KNOW.

I continue this pattern for the next set: Be STILL.

And finally (and by now, I usually feel completely relaxed and calm): BE.

I find this to be powerful. I am taking charge of my body and making it slow down, relax, and focus completely on the Savior. I try to imagine the Savior in my mind saying these words to me. And the phrase, as words are removed, changes meaning just slightly and is inspirational in its own way.

The phrase can be found in in Psalm 46:10 and also in Doctrine and Covenants 101:16, which is a favorite passage of mine:

Therefore, let your hearts be comforted concerning Zion; for all flesh is in mine ahands; be still and bknow that I am God.

Let me rephrase it just slightly:

Therefore, let your hearts be comforted concerning (your child’s name); for all flesh is in mine hands; be still and know that I am God.

My son used to sneak out of the house on a very regular basis. Sometimes he was picked up by police and brought home. Sometimes I woke up with a start and went to check on him, and, finding him missing, would call the police myself.

It greatly affected my sleep. Sometimes I would pray and leave him in the Lord’s hands, and then I would force myself to stay in bed and just let it be. Sometimes I slept. More often, I didn’t.

When I could truly relax and let the words of this verse seep into my heart, I was more likely to sleep. I might not know where my boy was, or who he was with, or what he was doing, or if he was safe. But I knew, and I still know, that he is and always has been in the Lord’s hands. I cannot be everywhere at once. I can’t watch him every minute of every day. I can’t always help him understand the consequences of his actions. But he is in the Lord’s hands. And He is God.

And that’s all I really need to know.